What has been especially hard is when someone says something that I SO want to respond to, it's like the Lord wipes my brain of any coherent words to offer. Leaving me with only the ability to listen. I find myself saying "hmm" a lot in conversations. Not because I really want to, but because the Lord is teaching me something in listening beyond the words. In listening for what HIS response is to the words being said, even if I'm not to share them with others. Maybe none of this makes sense to any of you. But maybe it does.
I also find myself asking, "Why, Father?" a lot. And in all different contexts. The answer comes quickly and clearly. "Everything that can be shaken will be shaken, daughter. Focus on Me, just Me." Sometimes I say, "Not now." And then I wish I hadn't. Other times I say, "Ok, Daddy." And in that moment of sheer obedience, even as the storm rages around me, I find peace beyond understanding. And I find rest, knowing that when all else fades (and it will), He will still be.
It's not time to have wandering eyes. It's time for our eyes to be firmly focused on Him. The enemy is hot in pursuit of anything it can get a hold of. Don't be deceived. Not everything is as it seems. As I've said before, just because something's changed doesn't mean anything is different. Sometimes it's just a new dress covering up the same old festering wound.
We were watching the season finale of Chuck last night and one of the characters said, "I don't want a brain bath..I want the truth." I couldn't have said it better.
Seek healing. It's yours. Seek truth. It's yours.
Check this passage out when you have a minute: Philipians 4 <-- click there. :)
Love you. We'll chat soon..
My prayers are with you, daughter, in this time of growth. The desert is only scary because we think WE are in control and the barrenness seems so Nothing. But the desert is where we struggle and we lose, only to have Him reach down and take us up... give us water, give us rest, give us coolness in the heat. Trust this time, as I know you do. Trust that those who love you trust you to Trust Him. I love you.
ReplyDeleteThank you ((hugs)) God is good!
ReplyDelete"Maybe none of this makes sense to any of you. But maybe it does." IT DOES.
ReplyDeleteOh good :) It all made sense in my brain but seemed not to come out very well on paper.
ReplyDeleteBoy. It's like I was writing this and not you. This has been the hardest lesson in my life. I used to be so confrontational and had to let everyone know what I was thinking. Learning to hold my tongue and let the Holy Spirit guide my words has been SO hard. Especially when I *think* I have some good advice for someone. But I have to say this....I have been living a life with less drama, less gossip, less pain because I've been holding my tongue. Waiting for the Lord to give me words sometimes means I am silent.
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He love's us so much. It's hard sometimes to do what we know we are suppose to but in the long run it will all make sense and all be worth it. I am right there with you sister, I am kind of in this season of just waiting and focusing on him instead of all the problems that seem to popping up in my life lately. The desert only goes on for so long and then comes the oasis!
ReplyDeleteLove love love this! God is good and I am so thankful for you as my friend with such a heart for him! You bless me by just being you miss you tonz
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