Neglected?

I know, it's been pretty quiet around my blog home since going back to Facebook.  But, really, I just don't have much I'm willing to talk about.  I'm kinda in one of those "seasons" where it seems it's better if I say nothing at all.  I'll choose to learn instead of speak.  If that makes sense.  Don't get me wrong, I still talk all the time (how could I not! haha).  Just not about certain things.  That's a stupid comment and seems vague and like I want you to ask but am not going to say it.  Like I'm on a fishing expedition.  But, I'm not.  Sometimes it's just best to leave things unsaid.  And offer thoughts, worries, joys, troubles, etc up to the Lord in prayer.  He's best equipped to handle them anyway. :)

I know that paragraph will probably spur emails in my inbox asking if I'm ok.  Please, believe me.  I'm fine.  Really.

Isn't it amazing how when we choose to be silent we can hear His voice so much clearer?  It never ceases to amaze me how much we miss out on when we are too busy being loud.  If we insist on making incessant noise, we can't expect to hear His voice.  He speaks softly for a reason.  So that we will be still, let the rest of the noise fade, and just give Him our full attention.  Just as we would a new lover.  He longs for you.  Do you long for Him?  I do.  And I'm in a receiving mode.  But in order to receive I have to give.  And, right now, I'm giving my silence as an offering.  Please, don't mistake it for anything else.  I'm not growing complacent.  I'm not being rude.  I'm not depressed.  I can't say that I am always joyful right now though.  Cuz it's just not true.  I have moments of joy, moments of introspection, moments of anger, moments of whatever else.  There are a lot of changes going on right now, and I just need a bit to soak it all in and learn what the Lord wants me to learn in all of it.  In growing, there are growing pains. I've been noisy, and now I'm choosing to be quiet.

He's been preparing me for this season for quite some time, and I'm so thankful for being in the spiritual place I'm in now instead of where I was a year ago.  But I can't say I'm perfect.  I've spouted off when I shouldn't have and kept quiet when I should have spoken up.  I'm a human and my human flaws are evident.  Thankfully, His grace covers it all.  And His joy comes in the morning, over and over and over again.  :)  He's a fantastic Daddy, isn't He?  Makes me smile whenever I think of Him.

Hmm..what else..I do have a new song that I love.  I know, go figure!  Here's a video of it..


Lyrics:

Gorgeous Face
Your face is what I long to see
Your eyes, piercing the depths of me


Come quickly, my Father
Your child is here waiting
Show me Your face
No more veil’s covering me
Burn me with pure love
So I can see
My Lord, my Lord


Awesome splendor
Glorious majesty
Faithful Father
Gorgeous face


© 2009 Rick Pino and Kari Jobe

Another cool thing..school is out for J and I on Tuesday!!  Maybe earlier if we decide to do extra work.  I can't wait for summer break!  Yeeehaw!

I'll leave you with this:

NOW FAITH is the assurance (the confirmation, ^[a]the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].  Hebrews 11:1 AMP

Take care of yourself.  Don't forget to take time to listen.  Love you.

We'll chat soon..