Life is change.

I was gonna say that I haven't felt like blogging lately and then I was going to apologize that it had been so long since I last wrote. But then I realized I just friggen wrote yesterday. Wow, how the time flies. Well, regardless, in the last 16 hours or so, I just haven't felt like blogging!! LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I crack myself up. As I sit here laughing at myself, Chris sits next to me and says with a knowing look, "It's gonna be a great blog, isn't it." LOL!!! Well, no promises.

Anyhoo..Chris made me a chocolate cake because he's wonderful and he loves me. I smell it, it's calling me. But, I must wait. Must not rush and have hot cake that will make me sick. Although, I'd like to dive into it face first like the baby in A Christmas Story..snorting and laughing and all. Those of you who have seen me eat know that that's actually not too far off from my "normal" eating.

It's been heavy on me lately, the whole people pleasing thing. I know folk who are struggling with it right now. Constantly worried of how they are perceived, how they perceive others..etc. I get frustrated because I can remember being in that pit and desperately wanting out. The main thing for me is that it's not about other peoples perceptions of us. Sure, to a certain extent they are important because we want to be a good example of who the Lord wants us to be. But, at the same time the Lord promises us that man will fail us. And that we are to look to HIM for our approval. I believe once we are looking only to the Lord for our approval that we then begin to change and in turn the way others perceive us begins to change and vice versa. But, it seems to be a very difficult thing to convince people that all they have to do is STOP and look UP above the crowd of BS to see the loving arms of their savior reaching down to pull them up out of the muck and into His arms. That when we truly have our eyes on Jesus, everything else falls away. Anyway, please just keep my buddies in your prayers. I appreciate it.

Work was busy today, Corinne had to stay home with her kids. They have something called the Echo Virus. She thought it was measles at first but the tests came back negative. They feel totally fine. She says they may have gotten it from the water park but there is no way of knowing. Anyway, hopefully they are better soon. Poor lil babies. But, speaking of Corinne, please keep her in your prayers, too. She's been having a really hard time..her life is sooo full, and now her beloved Gramma is dying of Leukemia. They just found it about a month ago and they gave her 4 to 6 weeks to live. Some docs said a little more, some said a little less. She adores her Gramma more than words and is trying to be strong, but she's hurting. She bursts into tears and then I burst into tears (nothing unusual for me!) and we talk about our Gramma's and how we don't want them to leave us. It's just a really hard thing to lose those you love the most.

Mom n Dad come home tomorrow night. WOOHOO! Sheesh they've been gone a LONG time. Excited to see their tan faces.

Gabe's spending the night on Friday night and then he & Chris are goin fishin on Saturday morning..they invited me & the kiddos to go along but I think I might send the kiddos with them and then I can go out for some "me" time with Kristi..if not Saturday then probably Sunday. I do like to go fishin so maybe I'll join them. Not sure yet. I do have to do a lot of baking on Saturday, but I could do that at night..

Well, I'm behind on laundry and my back hurts and I wanna go lay the crap down. Have a wonderful night guys.

Love you!