My buddy, Ernesto, forwarded this to me today. It is AMAZING! I just love how when we choose to change our perspective on a situation, everything is made clear. Anyway, enjoy..
See God’s Goodness In The Midst Of Evil
By: Joseph Prince
Matthew 2:13
13… an angel of the Lord appeared to Joseph in a dream, saying, “Arise, take the young Child and His mother, flee to Egypt, and stay there until I bring you word; for Herod will seek the young Child to destroy Him.”
God does not play a game of counterattack with the devil — the devil does something bad, then God steps in to bring something good out of it. The truth is, when something bad happens, it is the devil reacting to something good that God has started. The Lord once told me, “Tell My people that if they want to understand what I am doing, just look at what the devil is doing and see it in reverse. That is what I am doing, multiplied many times over.”
I see this truth in the Bible. When Christ was born, soldiers were sent to kill all baby boys under the age of two in Bethlehem. The folks in Bethlehem then would have seen only evil. But there were those like Mary who saw God’s goodness. They knew that God had sent a Savior into the world! The killing of the infants was just the devil’s reaction to the gift of salvation that God had sent.
The Lord showed me that this was how we were to look at the bird flu when it hit our region not too long ago. While I was pondering the significance of birds, the Lord showed me Matthew 6:26: “Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”
If God takes care of the birds, how much more will He take care of you! So, by attacking the birds with disease, the devil is, in essence, reacting to God’s provision for His people. In other words, he saw that God’s provision had already been released on His people in a big way!
With every new virus that the devil throws at us, you must discern that the devil is trying to pervert and reverse what God is already doing. Then, you will know that something good is going to come out of it. You see, every new strain of virus tells us that God has already released a new anointing of health for His people. And I believe that He releases new levels of prosperity for His people too. So don’t just see the evil. See the good that God is already doing!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Facebook, itchy throats and sunshine
Good afternoon, blogging buddies :)
How is your life today? Treating you well? Are you enjoying the moments? My life is nice today, treating me fine, and I'm enjoying most of the moments, as long as they don't piss me off. And, I'm PMS'ing, so .. yeah, nuff said.
A fantastic bit of news, the sun is out! Yesterday was so funky weather wise. It's nice to have a break today, although it is cold and super windy. At least the sun is out. I can deal with the rest.
Kirstie Alley's BIG LIFE is still cracking me up. What a funny show. Anyone at all watching it???? And, I haven't heard anything from you all on my Biggest Loser post a few days back. Is anyone watching that???? I like to use a lot of ?????'s
Still in the thick of the Facebook fast. Just talking about it makes me want to swear. And I work very hard at not swearing, so maybe we shouldn't talk about it..but, I will. And, I won't swear. Promise. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks w/o FB. It feels like 2 years. I don't miss the actual website, or anything it offers. I just miss my friends. :0( Quite a few have been emailing me, so that has been nice. Some of the one's I miss most have proven that with or without Facebook, we won't be separated. That brings a smile to my face. See? There really WAS life before Myspace/Facebook! And the continued communication proves that. *wink* But there are still so many times that I want to go post something..or get an emotion out, or whatever..and can't. So, I either end up blowing up or bottling up or both or nothing or.. yeah. I'm lost. Ok, that's a bit dramatic. I'm not lost. Just having to find a new outlet for my emotions/thoughts, etc. Anyway, I told Chris Facebook is my "dope" and, like Mike Starr, I'm dope sick (any celeb. rehab/sober house fans out there?). Oh, did I mention my friend Mike Q. joined me and Jess in the Facebook fast? It's great to have company. Jess was only a part time lover of FB anyway, so it hasn't been too rough for her. Mike and I on the otherhand..well let's just say, we are walkin by faith. LOL
More people have moved on in other areas of life. It's sad. I keep wondering, how many more? I'm trying to stay positive and peaceful and choosing to put my focus on Him instead of outward things, but sometimes (about 4 million times/day) it gets hard. It's a constant adjustment from outward to upward. I find myself saying, "I give it all to you Lord" more than you could possibly begin to imagine. I know that in all things, He has my best interests in mind and will work everything for the good. And I know that to everything there is a season. But, ...ok I need to stop talking about this and move onto something else.
Allergies. Horrendous. Payday will bring more allergy pills. Thank you, Jesus, for payday. I'm itching, my son is making loud snorting sounds to itch his throat, Chris is coughing. I don't know what the daughter is doing, she's at school. But we here at home are miserable. However, as soon as I look outside and see all of the gorgeous green grass and trees and the beautiful rainbow of colored flowers, it's all worth it. NO SNOW is a wonderful thing.
Well, have a wonderful day friends. Praying the best for you and believing for great things on your behalf. Life is good, don't ever forget it. You are loved.
We'll chat soon..
How is your life today? Treating you well? Are you enjoying the moments? My life is nice today, treating me fine, and I'm enjoying most of the moments, as long as they don't piss me off. And, I'm PMS'ing, so .. yeah, nuff said.
A fantastic bit of news, the sun is out! Yesterday was so funky weather wise. It's nice to have a break today, although it is cold and super windy. At least the sun is out. I can deal with the rest.
Kirstie Alley's BIG LIFE is still cracking me up. What a funny show. Anyone at all watching it???? And, I haven't heard anything from you all on my Biggest Loser post a few days back. Is anyone watching that???? I like to use a lot of ?????'s
Still in the thick of the Facebook fast. Just talking about it makes me want to swear. And I work very hard at not swearing, so maybe we shouldn't talk about it..but, I will. And, I won't swear. Promise. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks w/o FB. It feels like 2 years. I don't miss the actual website, or anything it offers. I just miss my friends. :0( Quite a few have been emailing me, so that has been nice. Some of the one's I miss most have proven that with or without Facebook, we won't be separated. That brings a smile to my face. See? There really WAS life before Myspace/Facebook! And the continued communication proves that. *wink* But there are still so many times that I want to go post something..or get an emotion out, or whatever..and can't. So, I either end up blowing up or bottling up or both or nothing or.. yeah. I'm lost. Ok, that's a bit dramatic. I'm not lost. Just having to find a new outlet for my emotions/thoughts, etc. Anyway, I told Chris Facebook is my "dope" and, like Mike Starr, I'm dope sick (any celeb. rehab/sober house fans out there?). Oh, did I mention my friend Mike Q. joined me and Jess in the Facebook fast? It's great to have company. Jess was only a part time lover of FB anyway, so it hasn't been too rough for her. Mike and I on the otherhand..well let's just say, we are walkin by faith. LOL
More people have moved on in other areas of life. It's sad. I keep wondering, how many more? I'm trying to stay positive and peaceful and choosing to put my focus on Him instead of outward things, but sometimes (about 4 million times/day) it gets hard. It's a constant adjustment from outward to upward. I find myself saying, "I give it all to you Lord" more than you could possibly begin to imagine. I know that in all things, He has my best interests in mind and will work everything for the good. And I know that to everything there is a season. But, ...ok I need to stop talking about this and move onto something else.
Allergies. Horrendous. Payday will bring more allergy pills. Thank you, Jesus, for payday. I'm itching, my son is making loud snorting sounds to itch his throat, Chris is coughing. I don't know what the daughter is doing, she's at school. But we here at home are miserable. However, as soon as I look outside and see all of the gorgeous green grass and trees and the beautiful rainbow of colored flowers, it's all worth it. NO SNOW is a wonderful thing.
Well, have a wonderful day friends. Praying the best for you and believing for great things on your behalf. Life is good, don't ever forget it. You are loved.
We'll chat soon..
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
The Biggest Loser
Anyone watch this weeks episode? Cuz I was crying for the whole last half of it. O'Neil got me good.
The other thing that I loved was when Koli reminds Victoria of something great. And, I've heard it before on the show but for some reason it just really stuck out at me yesterday. He said, "Your potential is limitless." That is SO TRUE (obviously)! People will say, "Now THAT one has potential." But the truth is, we ALL have it! And it's LIMITLESS! What a freeing statement.
"Go GRAYS!!!" Love my gray team (Sam & Koli). Yellow (O'Neil and Sunshine) is still my 2nd fave..but the grays just had my heart from day one. They're good boys. But, O'Neil..man, I love him.
Have a great SONday everyone. Love you!
We'll chat soon...
The other thing that I loved was when Koli reminds Victoria of something great. And, I've heard it before on the show but for some reason it just really stuck out at me yesterday. He said, "Your potential is limitless." That is SO TRUE (obviously)! People will say, "Now THAT one has potential." But the truth is, we ALL have it! And it's LIMITLESS! What a freeing statement.
"Go GRAYS!!!" Love my gray team (Sam & Koli). Yellow (O'Neil and Sunshine) is still my 2nd fave..but the grays just had my heart from day one. They're good boys. But, O'Neil..man, I love him.
Have a great SONday everyone. Love you!
We'll chat soon...
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Happy Birthday to me!
Today is kinda cool cuz it's my birthday. Ok, I don't really care for my birthday. BUT, the cool part of it is that I am 33. I love that my age is two of the same number.
So..many of you remember that today was my weight loss goal date. I wanted to be at 140 today (started at 167). Here is my report. :)
Mom & Dad gave me some birthday $$ yesterday so today I went out shopping for a few hours. Got some make up (sorely needed) and some clothes (also sorely needed). I went to try on the clothes..it's never a good experience. But, it's getting better, slowly. Anyway, I had no idea what size pants to buy because I haven't bought pants in a bazillion years (minus the pair I bought at Christmas that never fit right but after returning them twice and getting new ones I just didn't care. I wear them even though they are huge). So the pants in my closet are 10's, 12's and 14's. Usually I get a 12 and they are snug. Today I thought, eh, what the heck..I'll try an 8..and then they didn't have the color I wanted in an 8, only a 6. So I thought, what the heck, I'll try it on. Never thought it would fit, just thought I'd try..because that's what I do. I try things even if I don't think they will work. Call me sadistic..call me optimistic. I'm sure, at times, I fit either description. Anyway, THEY FIT! I mean, they aren't loose. It's not a "perfect fit" by any means. But, they fit! I haven't worn a 6 since before I had J. He's 8. Yeah. I never thought I'd get back into a 6. And, still, an 8 would probably be a better choice. LOL The body of the pants fit perfectly as a 6. The waste "band" needs to be an 8. But, to hell with that. I bought the 6 and will work out. I don't wear skin tight shirts anyway..and before I started working out, my 14's and 12's fit like my 6's do now. So, who cares??
Also, in a bit of sad news..I had to get new bras. Last time I bought a bra I was a healthy D. Now? normal B. *sigh* I told Chris, I need liposuction, a tummy tuck and a boob lift. I may be wearing the 6 and the B bra, but I in no way look the same way I did last time I wore these sizes. He says, it's time to add in weights to my work out and he thinks that I will acheive the look I want. We shall see. If I don't, can I have liposuction, tummy tuck and a boob lift? Honestly, though, when all of the bills are paid off, I really will consider calling my plastic surgeon and going in for a Mommy Makeover. Why do all that work if I still have to look like crap afterwards? I can't think of a reason. It was one of the main reasons I didn't want to lose weight..because I didn't want to be a saggy woman. Don't get me wrong, I still have plenty of plump..but the sag is starting to increase. urgg..one step at a time, Sarah, one step at a time.
I also got a large shirt and a SMALL shirt! OK, can't hardly ever wear a small and definitely not anytime recently. My shoulders are too big for smalls. My boobs are too big for smalls. It's just always been that way. But this one is kind of a tank top so my shoulders have no issue. My newly tiny boobies still are a little snug, but it's not bad. Do you really want to know this? LOL Anyway, I usually wear an extra large.
SO, even though I didn't meet my weight loss goal for todays date (I wanted to be at 140, I'm at 149), I am super happy with where I'm at. I will still lose more as time goes on, but I'm in such a better place now emotionally and physically, I feel a million pounds lighter. I haven't worked out in about 3 weeks..maybe longer? Anyway, at that time I was 150..so basically the other pound I've lost since then is probably muscle. No good. We are gonna start going to the gym again on Monday. Next gym goal: Get rid of back boobs :o) (no, I'm not talking about my butt..it's already long gone).
Well, we had a great day today. Next weekend, after payday, my hubby is taking me out to get some Asian Fusion for a belated bday dinner..can't wait!
OH and I came home to a BEAUTIFUL bouquet of multi colored roses from Jess. They smell SOOOOOOO good. And they are beautiful.
Thanks to everyone who has texted/called/emailed to wish me a happy birthday. It's been happy, indeed!
Love you!
We'll chat soon..
So..many of you remember that today was my weight loss goal date. I wanted to be at 140 today (started at 167). Here is my report. :)
Mom & Dad gave me some birthday $$ yesterday so today I went out shopping for a few hours. Got some make up (sorely needed) and some clothes (also sorely needed). I went to try on the clothes..it's never a good experience. But, it's getting better, slowly. Anyway, I had no idea what size pants to buy because I haven't bought pants in a bazillion years (minus the pair I bought at Christmas that never fit right but after returning them twice and getting new ones I just didn't care. I wear them even though they are huge). So the pants in my closet are 10's, 12's and 14's. Usually I get a 12 and they are snug. Today I thought, eh, what the heck..I'll try an 8..and then they didn't have the color I wanted in an 8, only a 6. So I thought, what the heck, I'll try it on. Never thought it would fit, just thought I'd try..because that's what I do. I try things even if I don't think they will work. Call me sadistic..call me optimistic. I'm sure, at times, I fit either description. Anyway, THEY FIT! I mean, they aren't loose. It's not a "perfect fit" by any means. But, they fit! I haven't worn a 6 since before I had J. He's 8. Yeah. I never thought I'd get back into a 6. And, still, an 8 would probably be a better choice. LOL The body of the pants fit perfectly as a 6. The waste "band" needs to be an 8. But, to hell with that. I bought the 6 and will work out. I don't wear skin tight shirts anyway..and before I started working out, my 14's and 12's fit like my 6's do now. So, who cares??
Also, in a bit of sad news..I had to get new bras. Last time I bought a bra I was a healthy D. Now? normal B. *sigh* I told Chris, I need liposuction, a tummy tuck and a boob lift. I may be wearing the 6 and the B bra, but I in no way look the same way I did last time I wore these sizes. He says, it's time to add in weights to my work out and he thinks that I will acheive the look I want. We shall see. If I don't, can I have liposuction, tummy tuck and a boob lift? Honestly, though, when all of the bills are paid off, I really will consider calling my plastic surgeon and going in for a Mommy Makeover. Why do all that work if I still have to look like crap afterwards? I can't think of a reason. It was one of the main reasons I didn't want to lose weight..because I didn't want to be a saggy woman. Don't get me wrong, I still have plenty of plump..but the sag is starting to increase. urgg..one step at a time, Sarah, one step at a time.
I also got a large shirt and a SMALL shirt! OK, can't hardly ever wear a small and definitely not anytime recently. My shoulders are too big for smalls. My boobs are too big for smalls. It's just always been that way. But this one is kind of a tank top so my shoulders have no issue. My newly tiny boobies still are a little snug, but it's not bad. Do you really want to know this? LOL Anyway, I usually wear an extra large.
SO, even though I didn't meet my weight loss goal for todays date (I wanted to be at 140, I'm at 149), I am super happy with where I'm at. I will still lose more as time goes on, but I'm in such a better place now emotionally and physically, I feel a million pounds lighter. I haven't worked out in about 3 weeks..maybe longer? Anyway, at that time I was 150..so basically the other pound I've lost since then is probably muscle. No good. We are gonna start going to the gym again on Monday. Next gym goal: Get rid of back boobs :o) (no, I'm not talking about my butt..it's already long gone).
Well, we had a great day today. Next weekend, after payday, my hubby is taking me out to get some Asian Fusion for a belated bday dinner..can't wait!
OH and I came home to a BEAUTIFUL bouquet of multi colored roses from Jess. They smell SOOOOOOO good. And they are beautiful.
Thanks to everyone who has texted/called/emailed to wish me a happy birthday. It's been happy, indeed!
Love you!
We'll chat soon..
Friday, April 23, 2010
Playlist inspiration..
As some of you know, I have been tired of my current playlist for quite awhile. Just burned out on it. I used to have a playlist with close to 200 songs so it was impossible to get sick of!
Anyway, I'm gonna start spending some time making a new playlist. I can't decide if, in the meantime, I should have a silent blog or if I should leave the current playlist up there. Hmm. I think I will leave my current one up. I just don't like life w/o music, even if I'm burned out on it.
Any suggestions on music? Let me know. I don't promise I'll add it to my page, but I promise to check it out.
Have a great weekend! Love you!
We'll chat soon..
Anyway, I'm gonna start spending some time making a new playlist. I can't decide if, in the meantime, I should have a silent blog or if I should leave the current playlist up there. Hmm. I think I will leave my current one up. I just don't like life w/o music, even if I'm burned out on it.
Any suggestions on music? Let me know. I don't promise I'll add it to my page, but I promise to check it out.
Have a great weekend! Love you!
We'll chat soon..
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Thoughts for the journey..
It's raining outside..dark and gloomy. Usually I would be kinda icked out by it. But, I'm not. Because there's a different perspective to be had.
Right now, things are dark and gloomy, but the rain is here. Rain is cleansing, embrace it. Rain cleanses through the storm of darkness. The rain takes off all of the muck. And then, when everything is clean, the sun comes out and dries up all the muck puddled beneath our feet. Leaving beauty.
Well, if that's what it takes, then..Jesus BRING THE RAIN!
Takes on a whole new meaning with my new perspective. Jesus is bringing some storms right now for me, but he's also bringing the rain. And sometimes he has to use a scrubbing pad in order to get some of the muck off..but, brighter days are ahead! He never cleanses without also giving hope of a new day. And, so, in this time, I will choose to PRAISE HIM IN ADVANCE!
It may be stormy for many of us right now, but the breakthrough is coming..the SON will break through the clouds. He always does. But not until the rain has done it's part. Just as I wouldn't leave a carwash midwash, I won't leave the storm mid cleanse!
After the rain, comes a bright sunny day. Don't give up! A life without seasons is boring and never produces anything of merit.
Sidenote: Don't confuse spiritual remodeling for depression. The enemy will try to make you believe that life is horrible, that you suck. It's not, and you don't. Life is change. Always has been, always will be. And if you will embrace the change and participate in the remodeling and restoration project, instead of focusing on the mold filled walls, great things will happen. Are you ready? Do you want to be free? Cuz, no matter what you FEEL, you are NOT alone. He IS there. Take His hand, He came to set you FREE. Therefor, you ARE free. Right now, it's already done. So..You are only a captive as long as you allow yourself to be. You are in jail voluntarily.
At any point you can walk out and start life anew. But, it's your choice..and mine. My choice has been made. I will give it all up if it means getting closer to Him. And being all that He wants me to be. I don't want what I can do, I want what only He can do. It's time to change our perspective..change our thinking.
Life without Facebook: Day 7
Right now, things are dark and gloomy, but the rain is here. Rain is cleansing, embrace it. Rain cleanses through the storm of darkness. The rain takes off all of the muck. And then, when everything is clean, the sun comes out and dries up all the muck puddled beneath our feet. Leaving beauty.
Well, if that's what it takes, then..Jesus BRING THE RAIN!
Takes on a whole new meaning with my new perspective. Jesus is bringing some storms right now for me, but he's also bringing the rain. And sometimes he has to use a scrubbing pad in order to get some of the muck off..but, brighter days are ahead! He never cleanses without also giving hope of a new day. And, so, in this time, I will choose to PRAISE HIM IN ADVANCE!
It may be stormy for many of us right now, but the breakthrough is coming..the SON will break through the clouds. He always does. But not until the rain has done it's part. Just as I wouldn't leave a carwash midwash, I won't leave the storm mid cleanse!
After the rain, comes a bright sunny day. Don't give up! A life without seasons is boring and never produces anything of merit.
Sidenote: Don't confuse spiritual remodeling for depression. The enemy will try to make you believe that life is horrible, that you suck. It's not, and you don't. Life is change. Always has been, always will be. And if you will embrace the change and participate in the remodeling and restoration project, instead of focusing on the mold filled walls, great things will happen. Are you ready? Do you want to be free? Cuz, no matter what you FEEL, you are NOT alone. He IS there. Take His hand, He came to set you FREE. Therefor, you ARE free. Right now, it's already done. So..You are only a captive as long as you allow yourself to be. You are in jail voluntarily.
At any point you can walk out and start life anew. But, it's your choice..and mine. My choice has been made. I will give it all up if it means getting closer to Him. And being all that He wants me to be. I don't want what I can do, I want what only He can do. It's time to change our perspective..change our thinking.
Life without Facebook: Day 7
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
What a day.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I don't know what to put here..maybe, "Learning to trust"
Well, it was an interesting week..yeah, I realize it's only Tuesday. shh. It's been a long one. And I'm counting in the end of last week too. So it's, like, almost a week..sort of.
Have you ever worked so hard at changing your life and then had something pop up that threatened to take it all away? That's how I felt this week. That I've poured everything into making my life new..new in Christ. Building up this amazing family that I have. A wonderful marriage and friendship with my husband. And then in an instant, poof..it could be gone. Now, could that literally happen in this situation? No. Not at all. It would hurt friendships and future moves, but it would not destroy my life. But my mind that likes to run wild enjoys taking me for a ride on the "what if" train. And sadly, I keep buying the ticket for that ride. And then when I have to later jump off the fast moving train, it hurts. But, Daddy is always there to clean up my scrapes and tuck me under His wing. Anyway..on with the lame drama..
I don't want ANYTHING threatening my family or the life we've built. And I will do anything to keep that from happening. I am super protective over what we have. And get infuriated when anything even comes close to threatening it. I know what it's like to lose it all and I never want that to happen again. So, something came up last week and my defenses went up and all week I've been playing the game of, "Lord would you REALLY let that happen? Why can't I just be done with this? Will there ever be a point where this stops popping up? Is it REALLY that no matter how far I go, how far removed, or how much I grow that this is always going to be an issue? Why are you being so mean to me! (I can laugh at that last sentence now.)"
It's not an issue for me emotionally anymore..that was broken long ago. Which is why it's so flipping frustrating that the Lord just allows it to pop up. Why? If I've done what He's said, if I've moved on, if I've climbed that mountain, if I've found deliverance, if I feel free in that deliverance (and I do and am amazed by it daily), then WHY does He allow it to ever surface again? Not as a temptation, but just as an annoyance. If I'm truly free (which I am because he who He sets free is free indeed) then why does it bother me if it pops up? Why should it matter? Well, it doesn't. Not in the way it used to. But, it matters to my family. If you mess with my family, there is no second chance. If I've cut ties with you, you are no longer allowed in my life, or in anyone elses life that has to do with me. Selfish? Yup. Childish? Yup. Irrational? Yup. Totally lame and without merit? Undecided.
Anyway, I guess maybe the lesson in all of it is my continuing lesson in control. I hate to even type that word. "Control" What a hideous word. So..is it ME that controls whether these things pop up? (super long sentence incoming -->)Is all of the avoiding areas and people and whatever else in order to keep from being approached nothing more than a stupid human attempt at controlling a situation that really can only be controlled by the Lord? Yes. Sure is. And I'd like to say that I find comfort in the false human style control. But I don't. I HATE having to avoid places. But..why do I? What would really happen? Nothing. That's what. Absolutely nothing. Except for a situation that I wouldn't have complete control over. Then again, I would. Because in letting the Lord have control, I also live under that covering. And He will not take me anywhere where He can't be with me. And He will not put me in a situation that is beyond what I can handle. So, I need to learn to trust. Trust that He can handle ALL things, not just the little things like food in the cupboard (ok sometimes that's a big thing). Nothing is too big for Him.
So..my trust walk and my letting go of control walk are both growing..and I don't really enjoy the growing. Not when it's in situations that I haven't approved of. LOL!! But, I can't ever expect to be stronger in my walk with Him if I can only trust Him in situations that make sense to me. In situations that I'm ok with. I have to stretch. And this week I stretched (maybe too far and might have pulled something). And was given relief by the end of this afternoon. Thank you, Jesus, for proving to me yet again that You ARE in control. That You DO have my best interest at heart. That your future for me IS wonderful. And nothing can hurt that which You have brought together for good. I can have faith in You and trust You completely in everything, big and small. Your yoke is easy and Your burden light. If I start to get caught up in the BS of life again, I will remember that stress and anger and resentment and worry and fear are NOT FROM YOU.
Val, thanks for hearing me yell at the top of my lungs and for pushing me by asking "WHY" ..and making me wade through the crap until I found the Light. Love you!
We'll chat soon..here's a song I love. Addicted to the whole CD at the moment..
Have you ever worked so hard at changing your life and then had something pop up that threatened to take it all away? That's how I felt this week. That I've poured everything into making my life new..new in Christ. Building up this amazing family that I have. A wonderful marriage and friendship with my husband. And then in an instant, poof..it could be gone. Now, could that literally happen in this situation? No. Not at all. It would hurt friendships and future moves, but it would not destroy my life. But my mind that likes to run wild enjoys taking me for a ride on the "what if" train. And sadly, I keep buying the ticket for that ride. And then when I have to later jump off the fast moving train, it hurts. But, Daddy is always there to clean up my scrapes and tuck me under His wing. Anyway..on with the lame drama..
I don't want ANYTHING threatening my family or the life we've built. And I will do anything to keep that from happening. I am super protective over what we have. And get infuriated when anything even comes close to threatening it. I know what it's like to lose it all and I never want that to happen again. So, something came up last week and my defenses went up and all week I've been playing the game of, "Lord would you REALLY let that happen? Why can't I just be done with this? Will there ever be a point where this stops popping up? Is it REALLY that no matter how far I go, how far removed, or how much I grow that this is always going to be an issue? Why are you being so mean to me! (I can laugh at that last sentence now.)"
It's not an issue for me emotionally anymore..that was broken long ago. Which is why it's so flipping frustrating that the Lord just allows it to pop up. Why? If I've done what He's said, if I've moved on, if I've climbed that mountain, if I've found deliverance, if I feel free in that deliverance (and I do and am amazed by it daily), then WHY does He allow it to ever surface again? Not as a temptation, but just as an annoyance. If I'm truly free (which I am because he who He sets free is free indeed) then why does it bother me if it pops up? Why should it matter? Well, it doesn't. Not in the way it used to. But, it matters to my family. If you mess with my family, there is no second chance. If I've cut ties with you, you are no longer allowed in my life, or in anyone elses life that has to do with me. Selfish? Yup. Childish? Yup. Irrational? Yup. Totally lame and without merit? Undecided.
Anyway, I guess maybe the lesson in all of it is my continuing lesson in control. I hate to even type that word. "Control" What a hideous word. So..is it ME that controls whether these things pop up? (super long sentence incoming -->)Is all of the avoiding areas and people and whatever else in order to keep from being approached nothing more than a stupid human attempt at controlling a situation that really can only be controlled by the Lord? Yes. Sure is. And I'd like to say that I find comfort in the false human style control. But I don't. I HATE having to avoid places. But..why do I? What would really happen? Nothing. That's what. Absolutely nothing. Except for a situation that I wouldn't have complete control over. Then again, I would. Because in letting the Lord have control, I also live under that covering. And He will not take me anywhere where He can't be with me. And He will not put me in a situation that is beyond what I can handle. So, I need to learn to trust. Trust that He can handle ALL things, not just the little things like food in the cupboard (ok sometimes that's a big thing). Nothing is too big for Him.
So..my trust walk and my letting go of control walk are both growing..and I don't really enjoy the growing. Not when it's in situations that I haven't approved of. LOL!! But, I can't ever expect to be stronger in my walk with Him if I can only trust Him in situations that make sense to me. In situations that I'm ok with. I have to stretch. And this week I stretched (maybe too far and might have pulled something). And was given relief by the end of this afternoon. Thank you, Jesus, for proving to me yet again that You ARE in control. That You DO have my best interest at heart. That your future for me IS wonderful. And nothing can hurt that which You have brought together for good. I can have faith in You and trust You completely in everything, big and small. Your yoke is easy and Your burden light. If I start to get caught up in the BS of life again, I will remember that stress and anger and resentment and worry and fear are NOT FROM YOU.
Val, thanks for hearing me yell at the top of my lungs and for pushing me by asking "WHY" ..and making me wade through the crap until I found the Light. Love you!
We'll chat soon..here's a song I love. Addicted to the whole CD at the moment..
Monday, April 19, 2010
Life without Facebook..not all it's cracked up to be.
There are so many things I want to tell my Facebook friends! Can't. And I want to know how their/your days are going! Can't. Dang. I'm not even a week into the fast. Oh well..will find something else to do. Hope they/you are all doing well!
The dogs in this neighborhood are driving me insane. The weather is nice, so the dog owners figure that they can leave for work and have the dog outside ALL DAY with no problems. WRONG. Hello? Your dog barks ALL DAY. Don't leave it outside. If it was fine inside all winter, it can be fine inside all summer! Or put a bark collar on that sucker.
The weather is beautiful again today. Kitchen is nice and clean, schooling is almost done for the day. I need to get some laundry going and sew some patches onto J's Karate uniform. Also was gonna take him and his little buddy to the park and the library later, if she can go. But, I gotta tell you, a nap sounds lovely.
How's your week going?
The dogs in this neighborhood are driving me insane. The weather is nice, so the dog owners figure that they can leave for work and have the dog outside ALL DAY with no problems. WRONG. Hello? Your dog barks ALL DAY. Don't leave it outside. If it was fine inside all winter, it can be fine inside all summer! Or put a bark collar on that sucker.
The weather is beautiful again today. Kitchen is nice and clean, schooling is almost done for the day. I need to get some laundry going and sew some patches onto J's Karate uniform. Also was gonna take him and his little buddy to the park and the library later, if she can go. But, I gotta tell you, a nap sounds lovely.
How's your week going?
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Maxwell House...Mikey likes it!
So..the Maxwell House coffee commercials have started coming on again. New improved taste is the boast. We usually get Seattle's Best or Starbucks (one in the same). Chris and I have been toying with trying it. We are very skiddish with new coffee. Because we don't have a lot of money to throw around, and so if we get crappy coffee we are stuck with it till the next payday. That's a long time. Anyway, today I went into the store and found that the 2lb container of MH was at a lower price now! It's now $6 instead of being almost $8. I knew it would go down in price after the initial commercials died off. I came home and told Chris, "Babe, I got it. Hopefully it's good." We were nervous. Made a pot..Chris took the first sip and I cringed in anticipation..but he said, "It's not that bad!" YAY!!!! I tried mine and liked it, too. It's no Starbucks, but it's good. Later Chris said, "Hey, this really is pretty good!" I think we may have a winner.
Went and hung out with my Mommy today. It was super fun. We had planned to pack but ended up just running around from house to house and chatting. Then took J down to The Train Depot for "Depot Days", he had fun. J helped Grampie around the yard. We had ice cream sundaes. Just a fun, easy day. I needed that. Miss my parents. Love spending time with them.
Just on a side note, petty crap ticks me off. Or..maybe I should say womens petty crap ticks me off. It's like um can you just calm the mother down and breathe for a second? Not everything in life is really THAT dramatic. Everyone is NOT against you or out to get you and make your day miserable. Not everyone is really as immature as you think. Personal thoughts are really ok, even if they aren't identical to yours. And, maybe it's a good thing for you to be in a situation that you can't completely control 110%. Lots of people populate this earth, and for good reason. We need different ideas, different personalities, different everything! It's good for us. Adjust. Alter your perspective. please? You might find it refreshing. I know I will. **sigh** Ok, enough of that. Just wanted to get that out.
J has decided that we need to go fishing soon. Sounds like a plan to me! Ash is up to 41 Justin Bieber posters in her room now. It's cute.
Guess what? We are gonna camp soon. The warmer days will come more consistantly very soon, and that means camping is coming very soon!!! EEEEH! So exciting.
Matt and Laura got back today from Haiti. Was SO good to have them home. I pray their hearts are ok. Can't imagine all that they saw, and how hard it must have been to have to walk away from it all. I'm so proud of them for all that they do for others.
Well, I guess I've taken up enough of your day. :) Hope you had a fabulous weekend. I know I did! We got yard work and house work done..and got in a super long walk with the kids around the neighborhood, too! And, we got the chance to have dinner and conversation with some great friends. Really had a wonderful weekend.
I need a new blog layout..
Have a wonderful Monday, my sweet friends. Love you dearly.
We'll chat soon...
Went and hung out with my Mommy today. It was super fun. We had planned to pack but ended up just running around from house to house and chatting. Then took J down to The Train Depot for "Depot Days", he had fun. J helped Grampie around the yard. We had ice cream sundaes. Just a fun, easy day. I needed that. Miss my parents. Love spending time with them.
Just on a side note, petty crap ticks me off. Or..maybe I should say womens petty crap ticks me off. It's like um can you just calm the mother down and breathe for a second? Not everything in life is really THAT dramatic. Everyone is NOT against you or out to get you and make your day miserable. Not everyone is really as immature as you think. Personal thoughts are really ok, even if they aren't identical to yours. And, maybe it's a good thing for you to be in a situation that you can't completely control 110%. Lots of people populate this earth, and for good reason. We need different ideas, different personalities, different everything! It's good for us. Adjust. Alter your perspective. please? You might find it refreshing. I know I will. **sigh** Ok, enough of that. Just wanted to get that out.
J has decided that we need to go fishing soon. Sounds like a plan to me! Ash is up to 41 Justin Bieber posters in her room now. It's cute.
Guess what? We are gonna camp soon. The warmer days will come more consistantly very soon, and that means camping is coming very soon!!! EEEEH! So exciting.
Matt and Laura got back today from Haiti. Was SO good to have them home. I pray their hearts are ok. Can't imagine all that they saw, and how hard it must have been to have to walk away from it all. I'm so proud of them for all that they do for others.
Well, I guess I've taken up enough of your day. :) Hope you had a fabulous weekend. I know I did! We got yard work and house work done..and got in a super long walk with the kids around the neighborhood, too! And, we got the chance to have dinner and conversation with some great friends. Really had a wonderful weekend.
I need a new blog layout..
Have a wonderful Monday, my sweet friends. Love you dearly.
We'll chat soon...
Friday, April 16, 2010
..Fasting Facebook..
Yup. I'm fasting Facebook. I'm just sick of it. I started fasting it last night. I already wanted to log in and post a song that I loved and wanted to share with my friends. But, I didn't. I'm tired of all of the time it takes away from life. Not because it's evil in itself, but because I allow it to suck my life away it becomes evil. I've just been kind of bored, and lonely. And if I'm on Facebook, then I have someone to talk to or laugh with. Chris is always busy with something, and so are the kids. I'm the only one not busy. I COULD be busy, but I'm not. Well..let's change that. I am ALWAYS busy. But I could be busy in other ways. Does that even make sense to you? Erg. Regardless, I have signed off of Facebook for the next 30 days, maybe longer, probably not. A lot of my friends do not live here, so FB is really my only way to connect with them..other than actually calling them. Who does that anymore? Not me. I no likey the telephoney.
The weather is gorgeous. High 60's last time I checked. YAY! I love this weather. LOVE IT!
Well, here's the video I wanted to share on FB today..I can still share it with you! :0) It's an "oldy" but goody. I was privelaged to see him perform this song live years ago. It's amazing in real life. Hope you enjoy it, too :) It's just simple and pure. And, I love that.
Love you. We'll chat soon..take care of you!
The weather is gorgeous. High 60's last time I checked. YAY! I love this weather. LOVE IT!
Well, here's the video I wanted to share on FB today..I can still share it with you! :0) It's an "oldy" but goody. I was privelaged to see him perform this song live years ago. It's amazing in real life. Hope you enjoy it, too :) It's just simple and pure. And, I love that.
Love you. We'll chat soon..take care of you!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Kirstie Alley..and boy crazy girls.
Kirstie Alley's BIG LIFE (A&E). Um, I love it. It's officially my new guilty pleasure. Ok, well, I don't feel guilty. She is so funny. And beyond insecure. But funny.
OK, I had other issues I was dealing with as a teen, but did I totally miss the boy crazy phase? These girls today seem to have a line up of like 10 to 15 guys that they "totally love". How is that possible? What happened to pining away after one person? And if you can "totally love" that many guys at once do you haven even the slightest clue what love really is? Obviously not. But, still...it's just weird to me. And then to classify yourself as "boy crazy"?? Good Lord if someone labeled themselves as that when I was a teen we then quickly labeled them as sluts! Weird. Your thoughts on this? (disclaimer: if you are one of these girls, no, I don't think you're a slut. I just think you might want to change your wording a bit. No guy wants a boy crazy girl. He wants a girl that professes loving him and him only. And, just by the way, PUT A SHIRT ON.)
I wanna go swimming. The weather is so beautiful today. And it was yesterday, too. Could we actually be really over the winter season now? Like, really? No more snow? For reals? Oh, I pray we are.
I saw some pics of Texas that my friend posted on FB..bluebonnets, longhorns, GREEEEEEN surroundings. I haven't missed anything about Texas for a few months..but those pics brought back all the missings. I don't want to move back, I just want to go back for awhile. Maybe one day I will..
Anyone want to send me to Turks and Caicos yet?
Love you my sweet friends!
We'll chat soon...
OK, I had other issues I was dealing with as a teen, but did I totally miss the boy crazy phase? These girls today seem to have a line up of like 10 to 15 guys that they "totally love". How is that possible? What happened to pining away after one person? And if you can "totally love" that many guys at once do you haven even the slightest clue what love really is? Obviously not. But, still...it's just weird to me. And then to classify yourself as "boy crazy"?? Good Lord if someone labeled themselves as that when I was a teen we then quickly labeled them as sluts! Weird. Your thoughts on this? (disclaimer: if you are one of these girls, no, I don't think you're a slut. I just think you might want to change your wording a bit. No guy wants a boy crazy girl. He wants a girl that professes loving him and him only. And, just by the way, PUT A SHIRT ON.)
I wanna go swimming. The weather is so beautiful today. And it was yesterday, too. Could we actually be really over the winter season now? Like, really? No more snow? For reals? Oh, I pray we are.
I saw some pics of Texas that my friend posted on FB..bluebonnets, longhorns, GREEEEEEN surroundings. I haven't missed anything about Texas for a few months..but those pics brought back all the missings. I don't want to move back, I just want to go back for awhile. Maybe one day I will..
Anyone want to send me to Turks and Caicos yet?
Love you my sweet friends!
We'll chat soon...
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Perspective..and diarrhea
Ok, so I'm not bored anymore.
The sun has been making infrequent, but wonderful, appearances lately. I love the sun. :)
I got an update on the triplets yesterday. They are all doing well, progressing nicely. Of course, there are still times when they stop breathing, but those times are less frequent. The prayer request continues to be for their lungs to get stronger and for no infection to come on.
Also got an update from both my brother and his wife. They made it to Haiti safely. My brother said, "Good things are happening here." And my sil said, "It's beyond words." I can't imagine the devastation. I'm sure it goes far beyond what we've seen. But, I'm glad to hear that they are able to help. They return back to the states on the 16th and back to Boise on the 18th. So please continue to pray for their safety, and for them to just have a wonderful experience. Also, that the Lord would protect their hearts. It's hard to see so much suffering and not be able to take care of and/or fix every single problem. And then come back to America where things are so much easier (even though we feel we have it rough, and some of us do. It's nothing like it is there.). It must be hard for them.
If you've been on FB at all you know that we all have colds, or we all have severe allergies. Not sure which. I would go with allergies, but Chris hardly ever gets allergies and he's got this thing the worst. So that kinda throws a wrench in things. Hmm..what do we have, what do we have. :) I guess there really isn't a need to slap a lable on it. Just suffice it to say that we all feel like crap.
Read this book called, The Noticer, by Andy Andrews. Have any of you read it? It's a quick read, and a really good one. It's all about perspective and how we can change things if we will change our vision. Loved it! And I'm having "fun" putting it to work. For instance, the last sentence in the above paragraph...we could change it to say..is it us that feel like crap? Or is it crap that feels like us? LOL!!! Ok..that's not the point of the book, but it was funny to me. Anyhoo, I used to be stellar at looking at things in a different perspective. But over the years I somehow lost a lot of that "gift". So, I'm working on getting it back. Hense, the lack of continued boredom.
My brother's dog has the worst gas in the world. I feel like I'm stuck in a public bathroom where someone just had violent diarrhea. SAVE ME! Perspective?
Have a great day, friends. Love you!
We'll chat soon..
The sun has been making infrequent, but wonderful, appearances lately. I love the sun. :)
I got an update on the triplets yesterday. They are all doing well, progressing nicely. Of course, there are still times when they stop breathing, but those times are less frequent. The prayer request continues to be for their lungs to get stronger and for no infection to come on.
Also got an update from both my brother and his wife. They made it to Haiti safely. My brother said, "Good things are happening here." And my sil said, "It's beyond words." I can't imagine the devastation. I'm sure it goes far beyond what we've seen. But, I'm glad to hear that they are able to help. They return back to the states on the 16th and back to Boise on the 18th. So please continue to pray for their safety, and for them to just have a wonderful experience. Also, that the Lord would protect their hearts. It's hard to see so much suffering and not be able to take care of and/or fix every single problem. And then come back to America where things are so much easier (even though we feel we have it rough, and some of us do. It's nothing like it is there.). It must be hard for them.
If you've been on FB at all you know that we all have colds, or we all have severe allergies. Not sure which. I would go with allergies, but Chris hardly ever gets allergies and he's got this thing the worst. So that kinda throws a wrench in things. Hmm..what do we have, what do we have. :) I guess there really isn't a need to slap a lable on it. Just suffice it to say that we all feel like crap.
Read this book called, The Noticer, by Andy Andrews. Have any of you read it? It's a quick read, and a really good one. It's all about perspective and how we can change things if we will change our vision. Loved it! And I'm having "fun" putting it to work. For instance, the last sentence in the above paragraph...we could change it to say..is it us that feel like crap? Or is it crap that feels like us? LOL!!! Ok..that's not the point of the book, but it was funny to me. Anyhoo, I used to be stellar at looking at things in a different perspective. But over the years I somehow lost a lot of that "gift". So, I'm working on getting it back. Hense, the lack of continued boredom.
My brother's dog has the worst gas in the world. I feel like I'm stuck in a public bathroom where someone just had violent diarrhea. SAVE ME! Perspective?
Have a great day, friends. Love you!
We'll chat soon..
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Boredom
Monday, April 5, 2010
Haven't blogged in awhile. Maybe I'm in a blog funk. Maybe not. Hmm
Weather's been fickle. It's sunny. It's snowy. It's breezy. It's tornado worthy wind gust time. It's clear skies. It's black nasty skies. You get the idea..Oh, and that can all happen within 15 minutes.
So, I'm going through a boredom phase. I haven't really ever had one of these for more than a day, so it's weird. I think I need something new for a hobby. Not sure what just yet. Any ideas?
We spent Easter (after church and visiting with Chris' Mom) out at the ranch..it is so nice out there. I so wish it were time for us to be out there, too. In God's timing....His is better than mine!
Ash has started her fundraising efforts for the National Youth Convention and Fine Arts Festival (Chris is telling me the name of it as I write..seriously, could they have come up with a longer name????) Anyhoo..so far she's raised $155 in addition to the somewhere around $200 she has in her account. Sweet. Only about another $800 to go. And another $600 to go for Chris, since he has to be there as a coach and chapperone. Yup..lookin for money trees! Seen any? Will be SO fun for them, though. A great experience and good Father Daughter time!
We've got a big weekend coming up with 2 birthday parties. One of them is a joint bday party for a bunch of folk having a bday in April, including me! :) How fun! The other one is for a great guy we've gotten to know this past year. Can't wait for all of the laughs and games.
Well, April is crazy intense busy, but it's filled with stuff we love so it's all good! Ash leaves for Montana for just a little less than a week at the end of April. That's for a Teen Bible Quiz Regional competition. Lots of trips for that girl.
Hope you're week started off well, and that it ends even better! Love you all. Keep on keepin on..never look down, always look UP! Victory is on the way, a new day is coming. :)
We'll chat soon...
Weather's been fickle. It's sunny. It's snowy. It's breezy. It's tornado worthy wind gust time. It's clear skies. It's black nasty skies. You get the idea..Oh, and that can all happen within 15 minutes.
So, I'm going through a boredom phase. I haven't really ever had one of these for more than a day, so it's weird. I think I need something new for a hobby. Not sure what just yet. Any ideas?
We spent Easter (after church and visiting with Chris' Mom) out at the ranch..it is so nice out there. I so wish it were time for us to be out there, too. In God's timing....His is better than mine!
Ash has started her fundraising efforts for the National Youth Convention and Fine Arts Festival (Chris is telling me the name of it as I write..seriously, could they have come up with a longer name????) Anyhoo..so far she's raised $155 in addition to the somewhere around $200 she has in her account. Sweet. Only about another $800 to go. And another $600 to go for Chris, since he has to be there as a coach and chapperone. Yup..lookin for money trees! Seen any? Will be SO fun for them, though. A great experience and good Father Daughter time!
We've got a big weekend coming up with 2 birthday parties. One of them is a joint bday party for a bunch of folk having a bday in April, including me! :) How fun! The other one is for a great guy we've gotten to know this past year. Can't wait for all of the laughs and games.
Well, April is crazy intense busy, but it's filled with stuff we love so it's all good! Ash leaves for Montana for just a little less than a week at the end of April. That's for a Teen Bible Quiz Regional competition. Lots of trips for that girl.
Hope you're week started off well, and that it ends even better! Love you all. Keep on keepin on..never look down, always look UP! Victory is on the way, a new day is coming. :)
We'll chat soon...
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