Venting..Crying..Comforting..Biggest Loser..Fam update!

So, I've wanted to write and vent and cry and laugh and whatever else would fit on that little rollercoaster.  But I've refrained.  For many reasons.  Instead had private tears with friends, hubby and my Jesus.  And..in doing that I realize that it was for the best.  His joy truly comes in the morning.  And, I'm thankful for that.  Anyway, all is well..just forever changing.  And we all know how I sometimes am less than enthusiastic about change..err..seasons.  But, I'm getting better as the days go on!  By force if nothing else.  LOL!

I'm all into The Biggest Loser.  Haven't watched the other seasons but this season is mine baby!  2nd episode comes on in just a few. Will watch it later with my good lookin hubby.  Speaking of me and good looking hubby..we've decided to get even better looking LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Ok, I'm being a brat.  But, really, I decided last night to lose weight.  25 pounds.  Already lost the 7 I gained over Christmas.  Anyhoo my friend and his wife are both losin weight and I got to talkin with his wife last night and thought..eh what the heck, I'll do it, and hubby was all for joining me!  Cuz here's the thing.  I'm happy with my body, most days.  Even though it's less than what most would consider ideal.  BUT, when I think of myself 5 years from now..10 years from now..I will no longer be happy with my body if it stays as it is now.  So, I will lose weight.  I want arms of steel and the legs of Sandra Bullock.  However, I do not want to work out in the gym. So the arms part will not likely happen.  I can make the legs happen though..well not just like hers but .. sheesh you get the idea.  I wouldn't usually post this online, but I am anyway..so just in advance..please don't tell me "You've been losing weight!", "You really look great!" etc..because although you may think it's a compliment, all I hear is "Dang, you were UGLY before. Thank God you decided to take some of that lard off."  So let's just focus on my insides and forget the outside.  Plus, when people tell me those things, it makes me want to go eat 4 Big Macs and a tub of ice cream.  I know, this is something I need to work on.  And, I am.  But, until I get the victory over it..just shh.

Ashley talks non stop.  She's got so many stories and questions, etc.  She never asked 4 million why's and how's and what if's when she was 2, so I guess I should take her questions now with joy!  haha  Really, I love her chatting with me.  There are many parents who don't have that with their kids.  I am blessed.

J runs non stop.  No matter where he goes or what he's doing, he's running.  It's sweet.  Sometimes annoying, but sweet.  Love hearing his little feet pounding pitter pattering around the house.  Ok, he's not little.  But, he's littler than me. 

If you're watching Wheel of Fortune right now, the answer is: "Save room for dessert."

American Idol starts tonight.  I had quit watching it I think about 2 seasons ago.  Just couldn't deal with how cruel they are to people in the tryout portion of the show.  Hurt my heart.  But, Ellen is going to be one of the hosts this year, so I must watch.  At least for awhile.  And..for all of you Simon haters..I actually liked his input for the tryout-ers.  It was Paula and Randy laughing mockingly and being condescending to them that chapped my ...

Well, I better go.  Sure love you.

Until next time, I'll leave you with this:

There is a future for the man of peace because he takes refuge in Him.

*Psalm 37:39-40*